📚Why I Study.
- Lamisha Lamisha
- Mar 23
- 6 min read
I’ve never quite fit into the academic world. So many words, so many theories—often circling ideas I feel within but struggle to translate. So why do I study? Because the world speaks a language and if I want to have an impact, I need to understand it.
There’s a knowing that lives within me, one that doesn’t always fit into structured learning. But in a world that values logic over intuition, I’ve realised that learning the language of the mainstream allows me to bridge the gap between what I know and what I can share.
More importantly, it helps me uphold the highest ethical standards in my work—ensuring that the spaces I create are safe, trauma-informed and deeply respectful of each person’s healing journey. Integrity matters to me. Care matters to me. People matter to me. This is why I study—not just to learn, but to ensure that those who work with me feel truly seen, supported and safe.
Seeing the World Differently 🌍
My mind doesn’t just absorb facts—I feel then see patterns, processes and the hidden layers beneath the surface. When I started studying, I thought I was seeking knowledge, but over time, the arrow kept pointing back at me. I’ve spent my life questioning: Is this shaped by my upbringing? My DNA? Is it trauma? Nutrition? My experiences? Or perhaps Neurodiversity? With what I know now, I realise—it’s all of the above, not that I like to label, but it does help connect the dots.
As a child growing up in a Western culture, I often felt a sense of confusion—like I was absorbing everything around me but not always fully understanding it. This shaped the way I saw the world, making me more introspective, always searching for meaning beneath the surface.
I spent a lot of time in the garden, lost in daydreams. I can still see my granddad’s frustration when I’d bounce a tennis ball against the brick wall for hours, lost in my own little world. Eventually, he’d hand me the hose and make me water the garden instead. And let me tell you, it wasn’t a small garden. But in a way, that space became my sanctuary—a place where I could dream freely while the world continued on around me.
What others took at face value, I saw from angles they hadn’t considered. But as I got older, I realised that not everyone saw what I saw—or understood what I was trying to express. It was frustrating at times, feeling like my thoughts and feelings existed in a language others couldn’t quite grasp. So, it’s become my mission to learn how to translate what I know into words the world can hear.
I’ve always been fascinated by the mysteries of life, following them like a detective piecing together a puzzle. Which is funny, because in Human Design, my profile is a 1—the Investigator. The need to understand is quite literally woven into my being.
Primitive Culture 🏝️
Recently, I was speaking with a woman about finding my dad and learning more about my Welsh/Englishheritage. With an air of certainty, she confidently stated that my intelligence must come from my father—because, of course, people from so called “primitive cultures” couldn’t possibly know anything.
It’s baffling how people can be unintentionally ignorant.
Now, don’t get me wrong—genetically, biologically and from meeting my dad, I can see so much of myself in him. But without the nurture of community, without the very culture she dismissed as primitive, I wouldn’t be who I am today.
Growing up, I struggled with severe attachment issues. If it weren’t for the love and care of people who embraced me wholeheartedly, I don’t believe I would have been okay—mentally, emotionally or spiritually. Even if it was only for seven years, those years moulded me in ways that words can’t fully describe.
I was raised in an environment where spirituality was embodied, where ancient songs were sung in ceremony and where community was at the centre of everything. I absorbed all of it.
When I later studied Social Science, it became painfully clear how broken the foster care system is in Western (Australian) culture. And to suggest that intelligence is determined by genetics alone—without recognising the wisdom of a culture that has thrived for generations—is absurd.
Because true intelligence wouldn’t allow children to be neglected. It wouldn’t allow a housing crisis that leaves vulnerable children without a home.
In the village—no matter how poor—every mouth was fed. Every child was welcomed.
So, what does that tell you?
The Language of the Universe 🌌
I’ve always felt drawn to minds that see the world differently. Take Einstein—his obsession with numbers, his ability to see beyond what was in front of him. I’m not calling myself Einstein😂😂, but I get it—when the world only sees things one way, it’s easy to feel trapped inside that version of reality. But truth isn’t rigid. We get to decide what’s real for us.
Since I was young, I’ve been in awe of the stars in the sky. As a teenager, I devoured magazines anywhere I could get my little hands on one, flipping straight to the horoscopes (obviously). So when I learned that my North Node is in Gemini and my South Node is in Sagittarius, it all made sense.
The Path I’m Here to Walk 🌀
In astrology, the North Node is our soul’s calling—the energy we’re meant to grow into. The South Node represents past life mastery—the wisdom we’ve already carried with us.
With Gemini North Node, my soul is here to communicate, express and share knowledge in a way that connects with others. Writing helps me slow my thoughts, shape my ideas and turn what’s swirling inside me into something tangible. It’s why I love doing these blogs—because words create bridges🌉.
And with Sagittarius South Node, I come from a past life of deep spiritual knowing, big ideas and a hunger for truth. I’ve always had that inner wisdom, that instinctive understanding of the unseen. But in this life, I’m here to refine it—to bring it into language, to make it accessible, to not just know, but communicate.
That’s why I study. Not to fit into an academic box, but to take what I already understand and translate it into something the world can receive. And if you’ve ever felt like you see things differently, like your mind doesn’t quite fit the mould—maybe you’re here to be a translator too.
Because there’s more than one way to learn. There’s more than one way to know. And there’s definitely more than one way to be heard.
The Alchemy of Experience: Turning Pain into Power 🔥
As a child, my world in the village was warm, wild and full of love. I came from a community that embraced me wholeheartedly—a place where I was adored, where my spirit was free and where my hair danced in the wind, untamed like my soul. But when I arrived in Australia, everything changed.
Placed in grade 2, I spoke minimal English and could not read. I was teased for being different. And home, the place that should have been my refuge, became another battlefield. Words were weapons and name calling was a daily torment. By the time I was 15, I chose to leave.
But here’s the thing—the Universe doesn’t break you, it refines you. Every challenge, every heartbreak, every moment that felt impossible was shaping me into who I was meant to become🦋. It led me to God, astrology, numerology, self help, nutrition, psychology, social science, Breathwork, meditation, yoga, mindfulness, journalling, the subconscious, trauma work, human design and recently Neuroscience—not as an escape, but as a way to make sense of the patterns woven through my life.
The Psychology of Transformation 🦋
Psychologically, when we go through pain, our brains create narratives to help us survive. We either shrink in fear or we rise in curiosity. I chose the latter. I became unconsciously obsessed with understanding—why do we suffer? What is the lesson? How can I turn this pain into something meaningful?
The human mind has an incredible ability to adapt, but the soul—it remembers. And what I’ve learned is that you don’t have to be psychic to navigate life. You just have to be willing to look deeper.
The Magick of Perspective 👁️
One of the greatest gifts I’ve received is the ability to see my experiences as teachers rather than burdens. It’s why I hold so much compassion for others—because I know what it’s like to walk through fire🔥 and come out the other side.
Struggles strip away illusions. Adversity reveals truth. And when you stop seeing hardship as something that happened to you and start seeing it as something that happened for you, you reclaim your 💥power.
So here’s the truth: your story holds magick. Your past isn’t a weight—it’s a map. If you follow the patterns, the lessons and the synchronicities, you’ll see that every experience, no matter how painful, was leading you exactly where you’re meant to be.
And that is where the real transformation begins.🦋
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