Self worth is deeply rooted in recognising your own inherent value, separate from external validation, achievements or the opinions of others. It is a consistent, internal sense that you are enough just as you are, which is more stable than self esteem, as it doesn’t fluctuate with circumstances or performance.
When I started this journey, my self worth was at its all time low. I was fatigued, unwell (panic attacks, anxiety, stress) and suffering severely from vertigo. Imagine being on a rocking boat 24/7 for nearly 3 years 😳. Which I believe was clear alarm 🚨 bells from my body letting me know my internal world was not balanced. But I was in such denial of life, pretending I was happy with living a life that did not support my internal rhythms.
In a lot of ways, my body had to scream for me to listen!
Since, deciding to quit my 9-5 job and really listening to my own internal rhythms. My vertigo has subsided, only appearing as a warning ⛔️ sign for when I'm not listening. Treating my nervous system and the amount of stress my body had been holding onto has really allowed me to meet myself where I’m at, yes this is the power 💥of Breathwork.
Which has offered me so much grace in my ‘humanmess’ a term coined by Jeff Brown. It’s funny how much his work resonates with me even though he isn’t a fan of “Woo-woo”. But I love the way he shows up authentically in what he believes in and I actually love his work. I believe to have self worth you need to foster authenticity. When I see someone who shows up like this it sparks my curiosity. As you get the energetic impression this person shows up free to be themselves, even with the fear of judgment, criticism or rejection. It’s the type of bravery required on our Earth 🌎 today.
As for me I’m a true believer in Universal Laws, as I feel the guidance of the Universe working through me. I do believe ✨ us humans can heal a lot of miscommunication through acknowledging different perspectives with deep respect for one another. But I can also see we are still integrating collectively various polarities into the (new) foundation of the human fabric. Realities are changing and this process takes time. In the interim it's upto us to learn how to hold both shadow and light (polarities) to exist, thus helping us to recreate new structures with a more wholistic approach.
Anyway, I’m getting sidetracked..lol. So how has working for myself shifted my self worth? Part of me navigating my internal rhythms was allowing myself to get really messy. Which I now know is my gift, being a Manifesting Generator. If you don’t know what an MG is, which rock 🪨 have you been living under 😂😂 Seriously, do yourself a favour and please join us for Sacred Sunday,on the 17th November to learn about your Incarnation Cross with Rach, Nic and I.
Back to the story, when we moved out to Kobble Creek, my neat packaged suburbian boxed mind was no longer serving me. This home (read blog Ruma Ruma 🏡)
feels so much part of this story, as it showed me areas within me that felt totally unworthy and nurtured me within her walls. This place helped me understand how much validation I was seeking from the external world. Which then redirected my focus, back to the bare basic, ME.
It awakened what I truly valued within and helped me place more importance on myself and my boundaries. I started to notice the more I had a solid sense of self, the more I could honour my needs and values. Saying “no” without guilt when something didn’t align with my well being. This hasn’t been easy for me, it’s a little awkward at times, but this is the natural flow in the right direction. You’ve got to go through the awks, there is no other way.
Rather than seeking approval, I started to prioritise my emotional, physical, mental and spiritual health, knowing they deserve respect and consideration. It’s funny working for myself has made me understand how I work and my ability to have a few jobs (things, interests) going on at the same time (MG trait 😉). Which from the outside world could seem rather messy, but having this type of freedom creates less stress in my system. As I’m able to discover my unique ways (times and rhythms) of working, without the imposed boxed environment of 9-5 or being limited by someone’s expectations.
I love the freedom and fluidity on deciding what is best for me. I think this works both for Mat & I, in Numerology we are both 8 Life paths, 8 is the number for leadership, being ‘the example’, entrepreneur and manifesting. In human design, Mat and I both MG’s, so it really feels like we have 6 staff 😂😂. We both have 3-8 things going at the same time.., if you’re an MG you know what I’m talking bout…lol. It’s made me understand that this is not a flaw, but more our super power!
Working for myself has amplified my worth, by being more compassionate with myself rather than critical. Something I adore and am learning always through my hubby, as someone who truly values himself, is that criticism or failure may still hurt, but it doesn’t shake your belief in your own worth.
Seeing setbacks as opportunities for growth rather than as a reflection of personal inadequacy. His resilience to bounce back from challenges with self trust intact, is truly admirable. When you have genuine self worth, it’s easy to celebrate other people’s success without comparing or questioning your own value. Because self worth is rooted in knowing everyone has unique contributions and is inherently valuable.
In essence, it’s taught me which relationship is the most important—the relationship with self. If that looks different to others, then I’m not your cup of tea, and that’s totally okay. But I believe we can still be respectful. It's taught me, when you’re passionate about what you do, that becomes your driving force; if you have a few passions, even better! 😂😂
Why do we need to subscribe to a box when we are far greater than our own limitations?
Through this process, I’ve discovered my own strength, resilience and confronted my blind spots (shadows). I’ve gained a deeper appreciation for my energy, learned to set healthier boundaries and can honestly say I have become my own cheerleader.
Want to explore your limiting belief and go on a self discovery journey?
Email: breathe@creativerootsbreaththerapy.com and book a 1:1 session with me.
Sending you an abundance of love ✨
💖💖💖Mish
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