Alchemising Shame: Rejection is Spirits Protection

This past weekend, I planned to host a numerology workshop—something I feel deeply passionate about. Numbers are more than digits to me; they are ancient codes, sacred messengers, maps of the soul. I poured my heart into it.

And yet…

No one booked.

For a moment, I felt it—that familiar sting of not being seen, of disappointment.

But this time, something within me shifted.

I didn’t collapse into shame.

I didn’t twist myself into knots searching for reasons.

I didn’t hustle to “fix” the situation.

Instead, a quiet truth rose up from within:

Rejection is Spirit’s Protection.

A mantra I’ve come to know so well.

And in that moment, I understood—the no-shows weren’t failures.

They were redirections.

A divine pause.

A loving reroute from something my mind may have wanted,

but my soul didn’t need.

Because if I choose to live in alignment with Universal Laws,

I must surrender to all of it.

Not just the moments that feel rewarding—

but the ones that challenge my ego,

unsettle my plans

and remind me:

I am not here to control the path.

I am here to walk in it with full trust.

Surrender is not giving up.

It’s opening up.

It’s saying:

“I may not understand this now, but I trust that Life does”

I didn’t feel shame.

I felt strength.

I didn’t panic or push to fill spots.

I felt peace.

I didn’t question my worth.

I reclaimed it.

I realised:

💫 I don’t need to be “more palatable” for people to get it.

💫 I don’t need to contort myself to match what others expect.

💫 I don’t need to dilute my magick to fit into societal moulds.

Because I am not here to perform.

I am not here to chase approval or beg for attention.

I am not here to deplete myself for validation.

I’m not here to push harder, bend more or twist myself into someone else’s version of acceptable.

Not anymore.

Because I know the cost of that.

I’ve paid it.

I am here to embody truth.

I am here to serve from a grounded, aligned place.

I am here to remember that being seen doesn’t require suffering.

I’ve spent years twisting myself like a pretzel 🥨 to be accepted.

Especially as a child arriving in Australia—carrying a deep intuitive knowing,

a soul-full way of seeing the world that didn’t quite fit the Western systems I found myself in.

I learned early that the way I sensed, felt and understood life wasn’t seen as “smart” or “valid.”

So I bent. I hid.

I tried to speak the language of logic and performance.

I tried to earn my place.

To prove my worth.

And slowly, I internalised a message that said:

“Your knowing is not enough. You must be more.”

But the truth?

My knowing was never the problem.

The problem was trying to fit it into a container that couldn’t hold it.

This experience—the workshop that “didn’t happen”—unfolded during the Sirius Gateway (July 3~7),

when the Sun aligns with the spiritual star Sirius,

opening a portal of higher frequency and divine remembrance.

And in the stillness, I received a different kind of download.

One that wasn’t about doing more—

but about being more true.

I remembered:

🌿 I’m not here to chase people.

🌿 I’m not here to sell my soul for visibility.

🌿 I’m not here to perform to be validated.

I’m here to be guided by the universal flow.

And to do that, I must meet every moment—

especially the uncomfortable ones,

with grace and faith.

Not resistance.

Not control.

But trust.

Because when we truly walk in alignment, we stop taking rejection personally.

We stop interpreting delays as defects.

And we start to feel the wisdom woven through every redirection.

So to those of you who’ve ever questioned your worth because something didn’t go “as planned”…

To those who’ve bent themselves into shapes they no longer recognise just to be chosen…

To those who’ve tried to make their magick more marketable, their hearts more palatable…

I see you.

And I want to remind you:

You don’t have to perform to be valuable.

You don’t have to hustle to prove your gifts.

You don’t have to dilute your truth to be understood.

Sometimes the no is sacred.

Sometimes the closed door is protection.

And sometimes, the greatest medicine comes in the moments where nothing seems to happen…

except the deep remembering of your soul.

To live in the unknown is to make peace with the pause—

To welcome what is,

and trust that the next step will be revealed when you’re ready to walk it.

Not a moment sooner.

Not a moment late.

Big hugs,

Lamisha

🌀 Reflection for You:

✨ Where have you hidden or twisted parts of yourself to be accepted or respected?

✨ Have you ever doubted your intelligence or worth because your gifts weren’t recognised by mainstream systems?

✨ What truth is rising in you now, asking to be honoured—even if it doesn’t “fit in”?

✨ Where have you taken rejection as proof you’re not enough?

✨ Can you begin to see it instead as Spirit’s redirection—or protection?

✨ What would it feel like to trust the flow of life and meet your current moment with grace and faith?

Let your answers rise slowly.

Let them guide you back home.